I want what I know I can't have.

I stay awake, thinking about possibilities. Thinking about what could have been. In those haunting hours, I know you never were mine, and there was no chance. But seeing you with her makes me feel like I have more to offer than her. I heard that if you love someone you want to see them happy, whether they're with you or not. I want to be happy for you, but it's so hard when I thought we had something going. When I thought you were mine. Even though that whole time I thought you were mine I knew you werent and I didnt want to believe it. And now I do know that you arent& never will be. I'm begining to understand the concept of love even if I dont want to. I hope you are happy, although I secretly hope one day we'll find each other, and start something. I realise that because you chose to be with her she has more to offer than I do. Because you chose her I know that Im not what you want. With that being said, Im glad that we can still be friends. But your girlfriend isnt too fond of that I dont think. She sent me a message, to leave you alone, but yet you chose her, so she shouldnt be worried about anything. Im not going to try to compete because I know I will not win. But I am a winner because you and I are friends .